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Sunday, January 23, 2005
Friday, January 21, 2005
My Reflection
THE JOURNEY OF LEARNING TO BE A MAN, A SOLDIER AND A GENTLMAN
When I first entered bmt, life was uncertain. I didn’t know what is ahead, where I’ll be posted to after my recruit life. But 1 thing was certain; being a soldier is a serious business. When my platoon sergeant Farish taught us how to tie our dog tag, he also explained to us why there are 2 dog tags instead of 1. The reason is simple, when one dies in the battle field, one will be cut and bring back home for your family and the other will stay with the body as identification purposes. Back then I was thinking that when one day the button is pressed, I maybe there out there giving my life for my nation, my loved ones therefore being a soldier is not easy.
As I go through all the training, the idea being a soldier became clearer to me. A soldier is one who can go through anything with our buddies in other words we can go through shit together. Actually come to think of it, it was really fun back in bmt when we had our field camps. It was just like 18 year old big kids learning really how to fight, getting really dirty out there and enduring the wet weather (although my 7 days field camp it only rained the very first day). Although I was weak but I just go through the training with my best effort.
I didn’t do really well in bmt, in fact my results were poor. I don’t even think I’m in the top 30% in my platoon. So during posting I was even lazy to open my posting to see where I’m posted to, I thought I will definitely be in SISPEC training to be a specialist. It was until some sms text congratulating me upon going to OCS then I realized I’m posted to OCS. It strike a new type of fear, will I make it? I heard that people in OCS are super fit and smart, was I good enough? I worried a lot, so much so that I couldn’t sleep at night before 5th of April 2004.
The very first day in OCS we walked through the tunnel of OCS, on the sides of the tunnel were quotations on the SAF 7 core values. Those words strike me a lot, because the very first day in army I tried to abide by it though I wasn’t clear about the true meaning of these words until I came over to OCS. Then we had learning organization sessions for the first few days and during the session wing commander was giving away water bottles. One of the games we played was the thumb wrestling. Who ever wins more then 5 times in 1 minute gets the water bottle. We had fun wrestling but none of us won more then 5 times. Only 1 pair won more than 5 times and both got the water bottle. The trick is cooperate with which other, let both side win then we will have a win-win situation. For a moment I thought I had learnt everything in life. It was very enriching and meaningful session to me. We also went running around the school seeing every landmark. Oh yar, one of the most meaningful evening to me in TST was the tower run. Like I said, I was not as physically fit therefore the tower run was very very tough for me. Of course, I was one of the last few who managed to reach the top. Every step we took up the tower actually represent 1 day in OCS, the suffering we had means the tough training in OCS and the extremely nice view on the top of the tower means the sweet fruit at the end of the course. Now that I’m going to commission, I really hope to do the tower run again. Come to think of it, the tower run tells us that, no matter how weak one can be, as long as he has the mental toughness to continue, he will eventually reach the top. In OCS it is the same, the training maybe tough but don’t give up because we can go through it will the support from friends and personal determination to complete in. I am the same. I finally see myself commissioning.
Through out the course I suffered a lot. Because I was not as good I had a lot to do to catch up. Sometimes i got humiliated by instructors. The feeling was terrible, I felt like I’m the most useless person in the world. But I learnt to pick myself up from failure and continue to strive for better results. By then I really can understand what it is really meant to be a soldier. A soldier is one who can take humiliation or any shit thrown to him. What is humiliation? It is just words. What is all this mud? It just makes you dirty. All these can’t kill you. A soldier faces bullets in the battlefield not just all these humiliation, it is the bullet that kills not the words from the instructor that made you feel useless. So I got to realize that no point feeling down. Stand tall and work harder.
1 thing I learnt from Daniel Seng, it is about completing what you have started. This principle has pushed me through a lot of exercises especially during Brunei. This OCS journey is indeed a bitter sweet one for me. Fighting along the same side with my platoon, looking after each other and shedding tears.
Tribute to Wing Commander SIR:
Sir, the recent incident was a mistake made by our friend and I believe you take part of mistake as your own. Sir rest assured that you are still capable in producing outstanding officers because I myself learnt a lot from the course. Even though I hate to write journal, I had my biggest takeaway not written in the book but in my heart. Sir I hoped I’m the 2% you are proud of. Thank You Sir!
Boon Hong
Sunday, January 02, 2005
This is my Guild in RO... they are the best man... although this is not the full team but most members are here. Know which character am i? If you are slightly more intelligent then you'll know, anyway i just give you the hind. I'm the guardian of Nature. We had Guild war every wednesday and saturday. Yesterday war was exciting, 5 mins intot the game, our castle is taken by the enemy and we tried our best to capture it back but it was too difficult as the enemy have more people and better teamwork than us. We change target and wack a castle in prontera and we got it. But last 10 min we lost the castle. we had only 5mins to capture it back. It was a lot of tension. Nevertheless the never give up spirit of our guild members fought hard and capture it back. This screenshot was actually taken because our guild leader wanted to disband the guild. After much discussion and voting, the guild is staying. My role in the guild is mainly defending. i set traps to prevent enemies from coming in. Those interest in RO pls join because it is going to be more fun soon after the patch update. Just imagine your pet can join in the fight... TOTAL CHAOS cheers
Saturday, January 01, 2005
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